I'm in the middle without any plans,

I’m faced with a bit of a problem. Don’t you hate it when something happens, and you have no control over it. That’s my problem. Three years have gone by since I met a certain person in my life, and in the past couple of weeks my feeling for this person have changed. Not for the better, I don’t think.

I’ll give you all a few details. It’s a guy, my age, and we’ve been great friends for about two years. I wouldn’t call us best friends, but I would be heartbroken if our friendship ended. He has always been fun to be with, and always great to talk to. He’s my advice-giving guy. He’s helped me through a lot of boy issues. Now the tables have turned. Currently I’m helping him through girl issues. He’s in a relationship, but doesn’t know if the relationship will last, or for how long. We’ve been spending more time together, and we’re getting closer as friends.

Now I’ll tell you about my problem. He loves his girlfriend very much, and wants things to work. My issue is that I have the smallest crush on him. Obviously I’m not going to act on it. I am not a home wrecker. My goal is not to split them up. My goal is to keep quiet. Even if he were to break-up with his girlfriend, I would never want to be his rebound girl. Also another issue is that, even if he didn’t have a girlfriend, I don’t think I would want to ruin a great friendship. So, I’m going to put it at the back of my mind and pretend it never existed.

On to another topic now. Summer is going fine I suppose. I haven’t been going out much but that’s the way I like it for the most part. My mom is going away for 5 days leaving me in charge of the house. Most teenagers would be thinking to themselves, “yeah!! Time for a party.” But I am not thinking that. I’m not that type of teenager, and even if I was there are certain things that are stopping me from doing so. The number one reason is my less responsible, and unreliable older sister. I don’t have time to have a party because I’m going to be watching her 24/7. Make sure she doesn’t burn the house down, make sure she doesn’t have her boyfriend sleep over, make sure she doesn’t leave the door unlocked, and make sure she doesn’t have a party. She would do all these things without even thinking.

Now, I’m not the world’s most perfect daughter. I am going to break a rule or two. I am going to have one or two people over, and maybe drink the vodka that’s in my room. But I will be careful with what I do. Oh yeah and this is going to be the first time I stay home alone. So I don’t know if I’ll be to scared to do so. I have a back up just in case. If I can’t sleep I’m pretty sure my nice wonderful best friend Maleeha will take me in, right Maleeha :)
Ok that’s all for now.