You don't know, so dont pretend.

I'm only writing this right now because i don't want Chitra to kill me in my sleep one night :)

I really don't have much to write about.
My trip was good and bad in a way, it started off pretty good. Well at least i thought it was going pretty good, but then just as we got close to being half way there, you probably can guess what happened. Jennifer decides she hates us and pretty much tells us that we're totally ruining this trip for her, even though we were trying as hard as humanly possible to make it the best trip ever. So, my moms all in a panic because we had reservations for the boat the next day and she had to somehow get my sister 20 hours back home by that afternoon. She thought about putting her on a plane, then she thought about putting her on a bus, then she was even thinking maybe theres a train.

Finally behind my moms back, like the little trip wrecking bitch she is, Jennifer texts my cousin that lives about five hours away from where we were at that moment, and asks him to drop everything and not only drive her home but also drive the extra 5 hours to where we were to pick her up then drive the 20 hours in the night to get her home. Yeah really, i couldn't believe it either. The only bad thing was, that my cousin, he's like the nicest guy on the planet and there was no way he was saying no to her. Which i thought was absolutely ridiculous. Personally i have no problem what so ever, when it comes to saying no to my sister.

So we waited for him to come pick her up, and waited and waited. It took forever, but at that point it was over and there was no use of anyone talking to her. So, i just sat in the front seat keeping my mouth shut, because it usually gets me in trouble when Jennifer's around.

Finally she left, and me and my mom sat in the car trying to rack our brains around the idea of what we could have possibly done that pissed her off to that extreme, but really there was no reason because it doesn't take much to piss her off, we've learned. After thinking for a while we decided we didn't do anything in particular, she just had to get back to kareem, god knows why, that guy personally makes me gag in my mouth. She probably needed some weed or something.

What ever, just what pisses me off is she made it seem like we were the reason she was leaving.

Also something has been brought to my attention, maleeha wrote an article and it got published right. I think that's amazing, most people don't even dream that big at this age. Its incredible too, its about teen drug use, and personally i think that the article she wrote couldn't have been more honest. Some very close minded people have been telling her how she shouldn't have wrote what she wrote, because the article was about our school. Truly, those people need to wake up and realize that most of the people that go to our school also go around saying that our school sucks and we all do drugs. How is it that when everyone else says it, its a friggin joke and people say whatever and move on, but now just because maleeha did something worth while and got her thoughts published, some of you think its wrong and she single handedly made our school look bad. Also wake up and friggin realize that everyone already thinks our school sucks, so one little article isn't gonna effect our status that much!!

God i hate people that think there opinions matter to others, yes you have your opinion, but no i didn't ask to hear it. Another thing, if anyone in this whole situation knows how drugs effect people its me. I've been dealing with it for the past two years, and I've had to sit on the side lines while i watch my sister completely throw her future away in less then 24 months, because of one thing and that's drugs. No, drugs are never a good thing in any situation. If you cant handle your life when your not high out of your mind then face it your never gonna be able to handle it. Its not helping anything, if people go around high, its not doing anything good for anyone.

And if your one of those people who thinks that drugs are the only way someones happy, then you really gotta get your own head checked. When people take drugs, you escape your life, for what, the hour and a half your high and falling all over the place? then reality hits you square in the face, and guess what its not going anywhere! Its ridiculous how some people can be manipulated in to thinking that drugs are the only way out.

I'll be honest when my sisters high, yeah sure she might look happy, but then I'm always there and I'm the one that has to deal with the after shock. She comes home stoned then an hour later shes back to her depressed, scrue the world self, and no one benefited from that hour.

So personally, i do think to many students in our school smoke weed, not all of us, but maybe one to many. I do know if it wasn't for some of the weed smokers at our school my sister might still be half normal and still going to our school, but she isn't, and to be honest our school helped change her for the worst.

OK so maybe i did have something to write about, sorry it was so long Chitra :)

PS,
Oh yeah, the rest of my trip went really well after she left and it was just me and my mom.

PPS,
On a happier note, the rest of my summer should be good, all i plan to do is hang out with my girls and have the greatest last month of summer i can. I also cant wait till fiana's back on Friday <3

Till next time.

Please, please, please.

She's going.

Everyone pray for me, so I survive this trip! :S

Oh god I hope we dont kill eachother.

I'm going to have a positive attitude, but really my positive attitude is only going to take me so far. After to many of there little fights, i might have to jump out of the car, on the high way, when we're passing a cliff or something.

Wish me luck :)

You cant go to hell, if your there.

My family is literally from hell.
They just push eachothers buttons and they dont realize thats what there doing, over and over and over, but I'm the one that has to sit in my room listening to this shit and i can hear exactly what there saying to make the other one want to kill them. What is wrong with my fucking family. I want to leave, i want to leave by myself, but if I'm forced to leave with you then hurry up and make up your mind about everything and leave her hear! All i wanted was to get the hell out of Ottawa. Thats it! Was that really to much to ask for?!!

Yes, we're still going, but the real reason for going was to go away and have some fun. Only now, the reason is because you already paid for the stupid trip and now your forcing yourself to go.

What the fuck is the point of that!

Another adventure;

Finally something to occupy my time at least for some of the summer. My mom decided to take me to Newfoundland, and drive across all of the little towns and what not. It should be a lot of fun, we're driving there, so we get to visit everyone on the way down, and most of my family lives between here and Newfoundland, literally.

I love going places with my mom, because she never has a schedule to keep, she's just one of those, do what ever we feel like people. I love her for that because that means we can stop at all the little places i love about Newfoundland. If you've never been to Newfoundland, then go! It's one of the most unique places in Canada always something to do, and no matter who you stop to talk to there all friendly and so cool because of the accent.

The drive down there is incredible, but so so long, its 20 hours all together driving time, for us anyways, and then on top of that theres a 17 hour boat ride. The boat ride is truly my favourite, i just love being on it, its so cool to know that your going across open water. Also this time should be really fun because we're going over during the day so we get to go out on the deck and look around, usually we cross at night, so theres nothing to see.

I just found out today that one of my favourite aunts, my aunt Ina, might fly down to join us when we get to St.John's. When her and my mom get together, its the funniest thing in the world. Both of them like to talk, and also love to be right, so when they start arguing, its funny in this really weird never ending way :P

We're going to be there for about 2 weeks, a little more. The second week we're there, my dad is flying down to join us, so we can go visit my grandma. She lives on the other side of Newfoundland, so then we have another long car ride to go there, but its worth it because she's my only grandparent left.

We're still waiting on Jennifer to make up her mind whether or not she wants to go at all. First we just told her we were going and told her to decide if she wanted to come or not, but then mom told her that dad was flying down, which i think was a huge mistake because obviously she's going to want to fly down now. I just know that if she does decide to fly with him, shes known to change her mind at the last minute and i can see that happening. I can picture, the morning of there flight her not want to come home from her boyfriends, then my dads like fucked because he never knows what to do when it comes to her.

what ever.
Oh I forgot to mention in all of that, that I'm leaving on Thursday or Friday. That's the beauty of my mom, you never know when she's going to wake you up and say get dressed we're leaving now :P

Till next time<3

Plus Chitra of course,

Chitra reminds me of owl :)

Owl is a wise old owl who tries to give useful advice, directions to far-away lands, and suggestions. Often, his words of wisdom backfire. He loves to read and is somewhat of a know-it-all. When Owl starts talking, he tends to go on and on; that's usually when Pooh and the other animals will quietly sneak away.

hehe i didnt forget you<3

The Hundred Acre Woods!

I looked up a site that tells you all about the characters on winnie the pooh so here you go.

Fiana reminds me of eeyor-
Eeyore is a loveable, pessimistic, and gloomy donkey. Eeyore is hardly ever happy, but his grumpiness might come from the fact that his tail is pinned to his behind. Disaster regularly follows him; in fact, nearly all of Eeyore's houses have either: fallen down, been knocked down by floods, or have been bounced down by Tigger.

San reminds me of tiger-
Tigger is a hyperactive tiger who loves to bounce, because that's "what Tiggers do best." He is a favorite of everyone in the Hundred Acre Wood, except Rabbit, whom he drives crazy with his bouncing. Tigger loves to try new things with gusto, but he often realizes that these endeavors aren't as easy as he thought.

Maleeha reminds me of Christopher Robin-
Christopher Robin is a young boy and the only human friend of Winnie the Pooh (and the gang). Christopher is the one whom Pooh and the other animals can always call on when they get into trouble and need help. Christopher lives at the other end of the Hundred Acre Wood and often calls Pooh a "silly old bear."(the young boy factor did it for me :P)

I remind myself of winnie the pooh-
Winnie the Pooh is a friendly bear who is always willing to lend a helping hand to his friends. Pooh loves honey (he spells it "hunny"), but his eternal search for it often gets him into trouble. When Pooh runs out of the sweet stuff, he'll ask to borrow a jar (or several) from a friend or try to taste some from a bee hive in the Hundred Acre Woods.

Isnt that nice :)

Stay for a while.

So I finally painted my room today, i think it looks pretty good. Well as good as my 12' x 12' room can look. I suffered through painting it with my mom. I guess this event wasnt to bad, atleast not as bad as my outing with her mentioned in my last blog anyways. So when we finally finished it, it was such a relief because now i dont have to think anymore on the colour choice.

Although today was very productive, tonight i will once again get no sleep. Another night passes by when the room next to me is empty. She's been gone now for i think three nights in a row, which is really nothing for her. Usually if either of us did something as big as painting our rooms then the other one would always want to be right there so that we could do it together. Nothing like that ever happens around here anymore. She just stays away, and we sit at home waiting for those phone calls like always.

Another week gone by.