Here’s my hand and my heart, It’s yours to take.

With all my life issues at the moment, I need this more then anything.
Valentines Day is coming and it's my first Valentines Day where I'm actually with someone. Every other valentines day I've been one of those angry bitter people that hates everyone else for being all happy and in love, but this year I've switched sides. I can't wait for it to get here. I want it to be special because it is after all my first valentines day, and first real relationship.

Me and Said are going out to dinner, then back to my house. He's getting me something, and I'm really excited because he got me really good presents on Christmas and I kinda knew what they were, so this time I'm twice as excited because I have no idea what its going to be.

This whole thing with said is going better then I ever expected. He's more then just my boyfriend. He's the person I go to when I'm upset, mad or nervous. He calms me down when ever I'm over exaggerating. He takes the time to talk to me and listen to my concerns. He moves at my pace and never acts like a jerk. When I'm with him it feels like nothing can go wrong. I just love being with him, and how he always makes me feel important. I know that sounds corny but its true.

I know alot of people look at Said and don't think much of him (which pisses me off more then anything!!!), but I look at him and see everything I ever wanted. He likes all the same things i do, we have no problem talking, which is huge for me because I usually have a really difficult time talking to guys. He makes me laugh and also can be serious when I need him to be. He just understands me so well and thats all I ever wanted. What we have is really strong because even before I realized I liked him he was there. When ever i needed to talk to anyone he was always there. We started talking almost two years ago and ever since then he's been my arm to lean on. His friendship meant everything to me, and now this relationship means so much.