Staring at the clock.

I am currently seeing this boy and I'm not sure what to think of it. He's one of those boys who doesn't really talk about the situation. So I've been seeing him now for two weeks. I say seeing him, but I doubt that he'd call it that. I know he likes me and all, but I'm not sure he wants to say it. We kiss eachother goodnight and hold hands, but I keep asking myself, where is this going?

I want to tell myself that it will work out, but it's hard. As much as I don't want to say this I can't help it. So here goes. When I was with my last boyfriend it was incredible, every time he touched me it was like we were starting all over and i had millions of butterflies in my stomach. He made me feel like the world was perfect and we were perfect. Even though he hurt me, I secretly wish I had those three months back because I never felt more loved. With this new boy it doesnt feel magical. I mean he makes me feel good because he is always complimenting me. I do like him and he is very fun to hangout with. Mybe I just need time to build up to that loving feeling. I mean with boy number one it wasn't an imediate feeling of love. We built up to that, so maybe with boy number two I have to do the same thing.

Lets hope that thats right because I do like being with boy number two. He's funny, sweet, and has gorgeous eyes. We love the same things, and he always want's to do what ever I want.

Please work out, please please please.
"Knock on wood"