No one ever lives the life they want.

I want a change. I want excitement.

Now I have to wait one month to attempt something exciting because no one can do anything truly exciting if they have braces. One month and I get a retainer, then a month after that I get invisiline.

When I started this school year I was sick of it before it even began. Every year is the same, its so routine. When the second semester started I was so happy because I was starting my co-op at CHEO, but now that has become just as routine as everything else in my life. Get up every morning go there for three hours, get picked up, change in the car, eat something, get dropped off at school. Everyday it's almost like I cant escape. Everyday is the same bullshit over and over again.

It's never going to change. When high school is over I'm going to do everything I can to change it. I'm going to move. I'm going to get a job that isn't routine. I'm going to live a life someone would be proud of. Not the one I have now. I'm going to go to university and study something I want. Study something that is a joy to learn. I'm going to go to university where no one knows me. I'm going to do everything right. I'm not going to make a mistake that people will remember and hold over my head. I don't want people holding me down. I want to live.