Why do you still bother me?

After all this time I should be over you, I shouldn't even give you the time of day. But somehow every time you say Hi to me on msn its like my world collapsed all because you decided it should. God, I hate how you control my every move, how you get to decide when we start and when we end.

You weren't even that great!
You never talked about what was important. You always told me that I stare to much. You never held my hand. You would always say the wrong thing. And you never kept your promises. For you it was like i only existed when you thought the timing was in your best interest. I hated you for all those things.

On the other hand,
you were the most wonderful thing that ever happened to me. You always used to hug me when ever you felt like it. And you'd always touch me on the nose when I was being to shy. And you would send shivers through me when you would bite my bottom lip so amazingly.

It doesn't matter how long ago that was, you still torture me to this day. Just as I'm starting to forget you, you pop back up and my heart sinks. I'll just be sitting here in peace then you decide you need to ruin that before I get to happy. So you say hi so innocently, not knowing what your doing. And then BAM! i crash back down to your level so you can start all over again, acting as if you didnt rip my heart out.

I guess we all wish that one heartache would go away, but then if it did who would be there to bring us back to reality when things start to get to good.