It wasn't just a dream.

Well I've been holding off on writing on my blog for a while, just because the last time I hurried to write about something important, it quickly went from "to perfect" to "disastrous". The last three weeks of my life, i could definitely have done without.

I wish I could erase most of it, but i cant. So I'll just have to deal with it, and that's ok because I have already decided that the person that caused the last three weeks of my life to be miserable was a huge mistake. But I'm the one that made the mistake because i knew from the beginning that he always hurts me in the end. I don't know why I thought this time was going to be different.

Oh, but back to the reason why i didn't want to write on my blog right away. I didn't want to jinx the one thing that is actually going good in my life right now. Also i want to wait and see if it was going anywhere, and i think it could be. So i just couldn't wait any longer to write it all down.

OK so for my frequent readers (chitra, maleeha) before "the mistake" i was talking about another boy in my life that could or might end up going somewhere. I guess i needed "the mistake" to happen to realize what i wanted, and now i know. I'm happy liking the likable. The boy I'm currently falling for is everything "the mistake" wasn't. He's likable, and sweet, and unlike "the mistake" he takes me places and tells me how pretty I am, and treats me like i deserve it.

When i look in this boys big dark brown eyes, i realize that they look soft and gentle, his eyes tell me that he's going to try not to hurt me to bad. Then I cant help but think about "the mistakes" eyes and how deep and dark they were, and how his eyes screamed everything i didn't want to hear.

I'm going to continue liking the likable, as long as the likable doesn't turn around and become the opposite of what i want. So far nothings gone wrong, but in my life that just means give it time something will eventually go terribly wrong.