It's raining, it's pouring...

I didn't realize that i had so much to think about until I decided tonight to go for a long walk in the rain. I walked for about an hour in complete silence, except for the rain hitting my face and the wind blowing the trees. It was amazingly awkward because I've never been able to hear my thoughts so clearly. As i walked i thought about a thousand different things, and for once it wasn't hard to just think and do nothing else.

I think everyone should take a walk in the rain, speaking metaphorically, it does alot of good. I don't mean do what i did, its not necessary to go out and walk in the freezing rain just to get a few moments to think. I just think that if you take a little bit of time to just think, its much better then keeping everything bottled up at the back of your mind.

One of the main things I thought about is how I'm going to handle the nine months that my dads gone. Its been on my mind for a while. Right now he's gone for his training exercises and I know he'll be back in a few weeks but i still miss him like crazy.When he actually leaves, and I start to miss him after his third month of being gone, i cant really tell myself he'll be back in a few weeks. The main thing i miss when my dads gone is his hugs and his phone calls. When he's here, he usually calls every morning. Its gonna be the hardest nine months of my life. I'll probably end up going crazy, or maybe I'll just spend a hell of alot of time in the rain.

Another thing I thought about is how stupid some people can be. Seriously, some people can be really stupid. Theres a situation that occurring between my group of friends and for some reason one person in particular is making the whole situation ten times worse then it ever had to be. I forgave certain people, and I'm moving on from the whole dilemma, so why cant everyone else. I know after you fight with someone it cant go back to being exactly how it was, unless your super close with that person, but you can at least try and be civil for everyone else involved. I admit I can be stubborn at times and i usually have to have the last word, but in this situation I let it go because I realized there was no point to it.

The point to my blog entry is that everyone needs a little rain once in a while.