Turned upside down.

I have no idea what to think.
I mean, life is so confusing, one day I think something and then for some odd reason the next day I go and do something to contradict myself. I'm such a confusing person.

Ok so theres this guy and last year and the beginning of this year I did not like him at all, because I am a very shallow person, very shallow. In all fairness, hes not the ugliest guy, but he's certainly not hot. Before now I never really gave him a chance because I just kept telling myself that he was to ugly and I never wanted to be with him. And then this year I don't know what happened, maybe I just changed and i didn't realize it, but sometime around the middle of October, him and I started hanging out, and we haven't stopped since. I might actually like him....

We have alot in common, and we have so much fun together. We like all the same movies, so its really easy for us to just sit down and spend a night watching movies. He's funny and nice, and I realized he's not the worst looking guy in the world. Just today we went shopping together (oh that's another plus, he doesn't mind shopping with me at all :D) and he was looking for some dress shirts and pants, so we went in to Tiptop and he tried on what ever I wanted him to, and he didn't even complain. Then when ever I made him try on something he really didn't like, all he would say is that he would never do this for anyone else. he's just really sweet, and i have completely changed my mind about him.

I'm a weird person like that, I mean usually I like guys that are taller then average, or guys that are kinda mysterious, but he's neither. And by some weird miracle that doesn't completely bother me.

We will see what happens, maybe He'll turn out to be the guy I always needed.