Alcohol is my friend.

So I've been dumped, but it hasn't hurt me as much as I thought...
It happened about a week ago and I'm just blogging about it now, so that says something. I admit he did mean something to me, but not enough to sit at home crying and eating myself to death. I don't know what to think. I thought it was going good but I guess I was wrong. He was being weird for a while but he kept saying it was nothing, so finally he told me he needed to talk to me about something, so we went to the mall and BAM! it was over. So that's it, and now it's just weird because he ignores me completely at school and is really cold whenever I attempt to talk to him.

Oh well. I'm not going to waste my time with "what ifs" It's done it's over, I'll wash my hands of that. To think I gave up drinking for him!!! God I've been craving alcohol forever now.

Good news, I might be going away for march break, I really hope we do. I need to get away from the routine of Ottawa. I want something different, i want to go away for a week and feel like that's my life. That this magical beautiful adventurous place is my real life. I want to put a bikini on and go swimming, tanning, and lounging around.

I want to feel beautiful!!!!!!!