Things turn out best for the people who make the best out of the way things turn out.

I'm sitting in the library and I'm eating a kinder egg surprise, and it's so frigging good. I've been craving one for the longest time so today after co-op I made my mom buy me some. Then I had to go the the doctors, not fun.

I used to get annoyed when my friends would talk about their ex's and how when they see them they want to go hide under a rock, but now that I'm the person doing the hiding it makes more sense. It's terrible. The way that the person makes you feel. How I don't even feel comfortable walking through school anymore. It feels like all eyes are on me because they know something I don't. Like if he's talking behind my back, and theres rumors going around. I think that's the worst thing that could even happen. If there were rumors going around about what happened and I'm the only one that doesn't know.

I know, I'm probably over reacting and my friends are going to read this and say the same thing they do all the time. There gonna say, he's a loser anyways and has no friends, and he's ugly. I know all that, but still it doesn't matter how ugly and stupid the person is, people will still believe there lies. Uggghhhhh, what ever a year and three months left and I never have to deal with these people again.

On a more happy note, as I was sitting in the doctors office waiting to go in, I was reading a magazine and looking at all the pretty dresses. And it got me thinking about next year and prom and graduation. Hopefully it will be great because I don't want to be one of those adults who regrets going and had the worst time ever. I want it to be the highlight of my teen years. I want to be able to tell the story of my prom to my kids and be proud of how it turned out. So yeah back to looking at the dresses. I cant wait until I get to buy my dress! On the other hand its going to be nerve racking. I'm so bad at making decisions, especially when it comes to important things like this. For example, it took me 6 months of shopping every weekend to find my grade 8 grad dress, and that's not even a very special event. PROM! That's special. So me and my mom decided today that we were going to start looking around now. First we're going to look here in Ottawa and maybe Montreal to get some ideas. Then we're going to go to New york and hopefully I'll be able to decide on one.

Ok that's all for now. I'm going to look at pictures of prom dresses now :)