You will never change.

Dont get the wrong idea, i am so over you!

I can be your friend, please let me be your friend. I need to be your friend in order to let you go, i atleast need to know your still there. I dont want you like that any more, and i realize that now. Thats all in the past now, and i still expect to have you every now and then in my future. You can forget me and i wont mind because i expect that from you. Your a disappointment but for some reason i still want you there. We will stay in touch and at times I'l feel like crying because your not exactly there anymore but what can i do, thats how you are, right.

All of thats over, and we're planning to start over as friends, i wonder if we can actually pull this friendship off. Will i be able to look at you and see a friend and not a heartbreak waiting to happen? we'll have to wait and see i guess.

If you ever come on msn we will plan our first day as friends together, but I dont know why i bother to depend on you? god. Your different, your truely a little out of control, you go out and get drunk and then do drugs on top of all of that? i never know when your being real with me or whether your just to stoned to know what your saying. What ever as i like to say life goes on, if your not there its still gonna go on isnt it :)

Even if your not there tomorrow i will enjoy myself because i'll be with my love maleeha and my hot ass lover Ryan gaterell. They will love me even if you dont, which im fine with.

Today was also fun becasue me, fiana, maleeha, and san had lunch at the mall and t was very good. I had a boritto( is that how you spell it, probably not) it was so yummy, i love those things!

ok well i'll write about tomorrow, no matter how it turns out :)