So what am I suppose to do?

My dad left today to go train in Edmonton, and when he left he told me he was coming back on Saturday. Well guess what, he obviously isn't coming back when he said, and there's no chance he'll be here on my birthday. The one day that things in this house are actually about me, and not the fucking drug addict next to me, and he's gonna miss it. All because war is obviously more important to him.

I am going to go crazy if i have to spend the nine months he's off fighting for this stupid fucked up country, with my fucked up crazy bitch of a sister, and my stupid lunatic mother. There going to kill each other, i know it. Today was a perfect example, my dads gone for less then 24 hours and my sister is already taking advantage of my mom. My sister is seriously fucked up in the head, I'm not even kidding, i think she needs to get her head checked or be permanently put in a mental house. I think my mom seriously doesnt know how to say no to her, she's just to afraid my sister is gonna tare her head off if she even came close to saying no. God what I'd give to be somewhere else.

On a more happier note i hung out with someone after school today :D OK for my more frequent readers, a few posts before this i talked about this really sweet guy that i never really saw because i was never able to talk to him. It was bad, in the other post i talked about how awkward seeing a movie was with him and then in another post i said how i was going to hangout with him but didn't because once again i was to shy. Well on Friday I hung out with this someone and we had a pretty good time, so today i went to his house after school. And this was big because its his birthday today and i kept asking him if he would rather do something else on his birthday rather then hangout with me and he was just like "no i just want u why is that to much to ask for" :D It was so sweet, and today didn't go to bad, i mean i talked a little more which was good. It was weird though because he was lying on the couch beside me, and the whole time i had this urge to touch his hair, but then i relized how creepy that was :P dont worry i didnt end up doing it. All in all, today was fun, and i mean he's not the best looking guy, but i think he's kinda good looking, and its not like I'd ever find a guy sweeter then him. He says things like, " when we hugged i didnt want to let u go" :D like seriously what guy would i ever find that would say that to me again! So i think i might actually like this guy. i might ask him to hang out on my birthday, which is next firday, i think he might want to because he told me he wasnt working that friday :)

Well atleast one good thing is happening in my life. The whole dad going to war is kinda dragging it all down though. He called tonight to tell my mom the news of him not coming back this Saturday, and not only did he not want to talk to me, i was listening in on the phone, and we're all conserned right, and he has the balls to say the stupidest thing to my mom. the last thing i heard before i hung up was...

Anyways war is hell right.