Third chances work...

Oh god, do I ever have something to write about!

So alot happens in one weekend. On Thursday I was home sick and really bored, and then i started talking to someone that I hadn't really talked to in a long time, and then without even realizing how fast our conversation was going, we had decided to hang out that night despite the fact that i was sick. So then he came over around 4 cuz that's when my mom was going to work. At the beginning of our night it was a really really awkward, because dont forget I am an awkward person.

Then we went down stairs to watch a movie, and through out the whole movie we hardly said to words, but then after the movie we started to fool around and one thing led to another and after a while he was lying on the couch with his head on me, and I'm pretty sure thats when my heart stopped. But obviously that was to good to be true, and right as we were looking at eachother the phone rings and its my mother, and shes coming home an hour early!

So we get up out of a position I could have stayed in forever, and we go upstairs and we sit on the couch in my living room. Me being the one that always gets hurt I thought this was another one night thing with him, but then he surprised me and right as i was about to kiss him he stopped me and said that he wanted to do this right, if we were gonna do it. Then he went on to tell me how he didnt want to hurt me this time. And all I was getting out of what he was saying was, he did want this to go somewhere! So then finally he had to leave and we kissed eachother goodbye, twice! , then he left. The second he left i literally could not breathe.

Still in my mind i was thinking, is this real or is he just saying all this like he always does. I always forgave him and then we both would act like nothing ever happened. I trusted him too, that was my biggest problem.

Then when he got home we talked on msn and the more we talked the more real it all seemed. What i couldnt figure out though is how fast it all had started. If someone had asked me a week ago if this guy and i were ever going to actually have something i wouldve laughed at the person, because as far as i knew he never wanted that from me. As he put it, we were to different, and some how he didnt understand that, that was why i liked him so friggin much.

So then the next day after school i went over to his house, and things sortof just felt like the last year hadnt happened and we just started where we left off. Sortof, see i still had my doubts. I was still worried that he would do something like before, but so far everthing was going good. We watched a movie in his room. I was kinda more interested in teh movie, it was a really good movie :P yeah but then when it ended we started talking about us, and how he was gonna try not to hurt me again. Obviously i didnt believe him right away, but then as always i couldnt help myself i looked at him and instantly didnt really care, i just cared that at that moment he wanted me. And then like always i had no choice but to trust him. One look at him and my heart always melts, its not my fault he just has that control over me, its kinda scary actually.

Yeah so i stayed at his house till 11, and it didnt seem long enough. I dont remember every second in detail, it was all kindof a blur. But what i do remember is that i am now his girlfriend! I've never been a girlfriend before. I really want this to work which sucks because i still dont know if I'm gonna be a good girlfriend or a bad girlfriend.

I keep giving him chance after chance, but the thing is I would probably give him a hundered chances.

I just hope the third chance is enough.